everything means nothing

[UnaDiaz]

I don't know exactly what is going on with me (or I do), I feel really hopeless about everything. I've been sleeping a lot and basically living in my room, I don't want to have friends or talk to anyone about anything...I feel like it doesn't help (at least for me). I deleted it all my social media accounts, I want to move alone now, I stopped making stuff that used to make me happy....I can't control this desire of isolation. I don't want to be a burden to anyone I know, I want them to be happy and they don't need to deal with me and my emotions. I...don't.....know exactly when this started and I can't think clearly of reasons. Every time I start feeling a little bit okay something pops in my head that starts to bring me down, or i just keep overthinking the same things that I think are triggering this emotions. I've tried everything: reading about philosophy, meditation, bringing happy thoughts, not feeding my sad with sad music or sad movies, new projects....and it just doesn't work. I've been interested in maybe trying anti-depressants for the first time but I don't know if that will help. I don't know why am I writing here...I mean...you don't have to read this anyways.

 

[Rockclimbinggirl]

I don't know exactly what is going on with me (or I do), I feel really hopeless about everything. I've been sleeping a lot and basically living in my room, I don't want to have friends or talk to anyone about anything...I feel like it doesn't help (at least for me). I deleted it all my social media accounts, I want to move alone now, I stopped making stuff that used to make me happy....I can't control this desire of isolation. I don't want to be a burden to anyone I know, I want them to be happy and they don't need to deal with me and my emotions. I...don't.....know exactly when this started and I can't think clearly of reasons. Every time I start feeling a little bit okay something pops in my head that starts to bring me down, or i just keep overthinking the same things that I think are triggering this emotions. I've tried everything: reading about philosophy, meditation, bringing happy thoughts, not feeding my sad with sad music or sad movies, new projects....and it just doesn't work. I've been interested in maybe trying anti-depressants for the first time but I don't know if that will help. I don't know why am I writing here...I mean...you don't have to read this anyways.

Hi UnaDiaz, welcome to SF.
Have you reached out to a doctor and told them how you're feeling? Isolating yourself from everyone is not a good idea. You're not a burden to anyone.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

Welcome to SF. Of course I read this.

I can understand the desire to withdraw yourself... just stay in a 'safe' bubble... I totally get that, but it's not healthy. It will only make your symptoms worse... I know that from experience...

If you haven't already I suggest reaching out to a doctor. There's help to be had to deal with your unpleasant thoughts.

If you want to talk to someone you're welcome to reach me. And yes I do want to listen!

Take care of yourself. You do deserve help!