This is my first time posting on a forum like this, so please bear with me. I'm 16 and I have to be home schooled because my depression and social anxiety is so bad. I can't see myself ever going back to school. I've never had any long term friends and I've had more bad than good experiences at school. At this point I don't know if my anxiety or depression is worse. I ended up in a behavioral ward two years ago because of my depression, but it didn't help me at all. Now I think about killing myself at least once a week, I don't eat much, I don't exercise, I feel like lying in bed all day, I'm on effexor which does nothing for me, I go outside maybe twice a week, and I just don't care about anything anymore. I have no friends, no life, and I'm tired of having nothing but problems with my parents. I've wanted to kill myself, but I can't bring myself to do it. It just feels like it's pointless for me to keep living. My life has been nothing but an uphill struggle and I don't have anything to show for it. I feel like nothing has improved and it never will. People say life's too short, but for me it's too long.