Everything sorted itself out in the end

Discussion in 'Positive Feelings and Motivational Messages' started by pbobble, Nov 27, 2012.

  1. pbobble

    pbobble Well-Known Member

    Its been a long time since I posted on this site, probably about a year, I only remembered it as I got a message from the forum on the email earlier.

    When I was posting on here last year, I was so depressed it was unbearable, suicide attempts, constantly on the suicide hotlines etc, I nearly had a psych hospital admission on a couple of occasions, I didn't think I was going to make it.

    This forum was really useful, to post my thoughts and relate to people who were in a similar situation.

    A year down the line I feel pretty good, mostly happy, sometimes very happy. The reality is that none of my practical situation or life situation has changed, nothing really has gone especially right for me, things are pretty much as they were when I was at my most depressed. Of course none of the things that happened to me through my life, in my past had changed.

    I can say for myself at least that my depression and feelings had nothing to do with my life situation really, even though I really thought so at the time, I was really convinced of it. I suspect it was more to do with what was going through my mind at that time, all those thoughts that I was going over and over all the time.

    As soon as I managed to get a little perspective on that and I began to realise just a little that it wasn't the things that had happened to me or what was going on in my life, but what was in my head I started to feel a bit better. Although it still took a long time to feel happier I did get there. When I felt like crap I just tended be ok with it, rather than desperately seeking to fix it all or find the cause of it. Bit by bit it just went away.

    I'm not sure if this will help anyone, but what really helped me was, as best as I could not always buying into all the thoughts that I had going on in my mind. If I had really believed everything going through my head then, I would be dead now.

    I guess what I'm trying to say is that its definitely possible for things to get better for a lot of people. When a person is depressed everything going through your mind can be really distorted and confused, at least it was for me. I think if someone who was as bad as I was with the repeated episodes of depression, just getting a bit better then relapsing over and over, can get to where I am now, feeling pretty good; with nothing in my life situation really changing. Then there must be hope for many people.

    Good luck and hang in there :)
     
  2. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    I am truly happy for you! That is such good news for you! And it's inspiring and hopeful for others, so thank you for sharing your journey! Keep in touch with us here. Good news is always welcome! :hug:
     
  3. NYJmpMaster

    NYJmpMaster Have a question? Message Me Staff Member Forum Owner ADMIN

    Thanks so much for sharing - I am so glad it is better for you and I think you are 100% correct in why it is/did get better as well

    :hug:
     
  4. Moat

    Moat Banned Member

    Cheers for sharing, and I am glad that some things have worked out for you for the better! It matters not how long since you joined or how much you frequent SF, it is all in the results that matter the most.

    :bubbles:

    g-gao^^
     
  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Thanks for the update hun I too am glad to hear you are feeling so much better hugs