I'm going to give it one last time posting here but usually I just get insulted and called names so go ahead and do it again because this will be the last topic I post on this forum. Yep i get it I am piece of shit and its a long road for me to be happy I get it. However I have had a long enough life and trying to go through some long process that will most likely not work seems like a waste of time. I should just end it and not waste my time or yours. My feelings that are always hurt and stuff will never be hurt again once I'm dead. I feel this is the time for me.