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[Dont think]

I woke up this morning feeling like i never have before, I feel like a shell, I feel hopeless, I feel this overwhelming sadness. I started crying again. I cannot seem to ever get you out of my head. I imagine talking to you. I NEED to be a friend, but I NEED to be more, and I cant. I cant say what i need to say.

My whole life, trapped, isolated, lonely, and still I cant get it out there, I cant reach out. This morning I just feel like Im going to do something today. I need hope, I need to erase all the thoughts of my past. I need to be reborn.

I feel totally numb, I imagine cutting myself over and over in that place. I need it to release. Its over, my life, its closing. I dont know. I watch the long grass bend in the wind...its beautiful.

 

[Dont think]

Sorry I cant think...I just cant. My head feels like its overloaded, its grey, its closing on me. Im not sure what I want to do, what im going to do. I look at the grass, and its life, but I cant escape my head, cant escape my life, cant turn back the clock, cant start again. Today I just dont know.

 

[Sa Palomera]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this :sad: :sad:

Sending you many virtual hugs :arms:

 

[Marshmallow]

:sad: If you ever need to talk im here :hug:

 

[Dont think]

Its all rubbish, every word I write is futile rubbish. Dont know why I post, its pointless...think ill just get written off, I dont care anymore...im beyond caring about myself now. Just want to erase the future, erase the past, and let it all just go.

 

[Unreger]

There's no point in clinging onto the past...

Just let it all go. Even what you thought, said, or did a few minutes ago, just let it go. Don't think about the future, the past, but just the present.

Don't think about anyone, or anything else. Focus on your breathing, gaze at some flowers or plants, and be at peace, if only for a moment. Your head will be clear afterwards, so you can think more clearly.

 

[Dont think]

Im sorry for being the way I am....its all I am.

 

[Unreger]

Awww don't say that...you must have some family members or friends who really care about you and accept you as you are, and if you don't- well, that's why this forum exists.

Have you ever considered professional help? If you can't afford it there's always insurance...Dunno sounds like mostly everyone who comes here needs it, including me... -_- ...