I cant do this anymore. i really have no purpose. I have tried so hard and that actually kills me. I have no one to turn to. My mums dyin, my dad hates me, and my sister is off with her husband. Whats the point no1 cares. I have given up so many times, but yet im 2 afraid to through with it. Thats whats called WEAK. 2 me, decidin to take your own life, is something strong. to be able to make such a decision and know u can never take it back once its done, is a characteristic i view courageous in people. God i wish i had that strength. I tried so bad....i even thought about telling people, but the one person who i trust and love, jst betrayed me. How does it feel knowin you killed me? How does it feel knowiin you were my last hope, and i chose to die, because of what you did? I hate this whole world and everythiing about it. Im worthless i deserve to die. i should. How can this life b worth living? wat i really need is someone to hold me and "promise" that it will all b ok? but really no one can do that. iv cut myself so many times. its the only thing htat helps me feel better. asthough i need 2 cut myself and see the blood pour out in order to feel. i no i deserve that pain, thats why i inflict it,...to give meanin 2 my worthless life. Sometimes i find it amusing to know im such a good liar. smiling away whilst inside, my heart is achin and all i want to do is shrivel up and die. im sorry but it has to end......soon !