Evil bitch that's what I am, i cut my body with a razor to try and get rid of the feelins, the dirtyness, to bled out. Tonight, I've put candals in my bedroom, I've got pills by my side and started to take them, I haven't taken loads but I have taken a few, for the next couple of hours I have planned to keep taking them, to keep swalloing pills to lay in bed and never wake up. I feel so heavy eyed, I feel like crying but can't. I have shut down. I've switched my phone off, not that anyone would call anyway. I just want the pain to go away, it hasn't, and it won't. I've had my mum in tears, I've evil to the bone. I'm evil and bad, nasty, horrible and deserve a painful death, even if the pills don't kill me, I will continue until my organs shut down, my immune system gives up and I die. I'm evil bitch.