So I attempted this morning. I'm not sure why, I was just so sad and have wanted to not live for so long and just be with my sister. Anyway, I took about <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>, that alone was an awful experience. For the past 15 hours I've been throwing up and violently ill. To my surprise I had no actual pain, I mean besides the nasuea which I find a bit painful. It definately wasn't worth it. I wish I could go back and not do it. I'm a bit worried now about if there is any damage. I think I threw up most of the pills, and I dont feel pain. I keep debating going to the hospital but I hate them so much and am pretty afraid. I just dont know what to do.