A few weeks ago, after I left my fiance of 3 years, we ended up in a situation where we were spending the night in the same house, in the same bed. My ex, P, kept pushing for sex and I repeatedly said no for a good 2 hours. We are broken up, I don't want to sleep with you, it's not happening, etc. Then, I took my Ambien for sleep and my Ambien really has a fairly large effect on me and makes me feel almost "high". Once I took my medicine, she waited about 30 minutes, the point where she knows I can't walk down a hall way by myself, much less stop whatever she's doing. Then, she forced herself on me. I feel like I can't go to the police because it's "lesbian" rape and I live in a tiny town. Not to mention the fact that she had a rough lot in life and is only JUST starting to get everything together, I don't want to ruin her life by reporting her. I'm so lost and confused - I've never been the girl to just "lay down" and take it. I'm a fighter, I always have been. So I can't for the life of me figure out why I'm "letting" her get away with this??? I need help, insight, advice, anything really that you can offer me.