I have been sleeping badly for past couple of weeks. Suicidal thoughts as I fall asleep. The last two days I just can't fall asleep and as a result, I really exhausted. This is never going to end! I'm tired of distractions. I have tried all the things help me get to sleep and it hasn't worked. Life is not going to get better. I am only getting older.... I should just end it, why wait! I just want this stop. I don't want to struggle with my thoughts of dying every night. It is worse at night. Lost and alone!