I have been battling ptsd, bipolar, and borderline personality for many years now and I am rapidly approaching the end. This forum seems to be my final stand I guess. I have lost hope in that I will ever be truly happy and that I will be able to contribute positively to life. It seems that everything I do turns to excrement. I have such a negative impact on my daughter and my husband; I just don't want to continue to hurt them anymore. I know that the 'Final Solution' will ultimately hurt them both but it would be the last time. I just see no alternative. I have a few obligations to follow through on, the final one being over July 4th. After that, I can put my plan into motion. All of the preparations have been made, you know, the usual getting ones affairs in order; so now it is just a wait game. I thought I would take advantage of the waiting and post here; afterall this is the only thing I haven't tried yet.