I am just sitting here with a bottle of pills, my only fear is being unsuccessful. Frankly because i have never succeeded at anything in my life, and why would i at something i want more then anything. My luck... i do nothing but end up making my situation worse. Or to the point where i can't do it right the next time when that comes around. I just want a one and done kind of solution. I have no desire to live and no future ahead of myself. I could go out and buy a gun but that would take too long and might cause problems if i am caught. Then where would i shoot myself. Atleast with pills i can fall asleep in bed and not wake up. It would look like i just fell asleep. I doubt they would do a tox screen or autopsy, i mean what is there to look in to. Does anyone know the right combination where i would just drift off and not wake up?