I'm not really sure what I feel all of the time or even why, but I do know that I constantly have the urge to end my life. I want to and honestly I don't know why I haven't, it's like there's something stopping me yet I'm not sure what. I don't think there is anything anyone can say that will change my mind, as I do plan on ending my life sometime. It's all kind of confusing. I'm constantly told I should be happy and I will get better but I don't want to. I just want it to end.