Lying in bed, crying, fed up with this pointless existence. Everything is slipping away from me. I have no life or motivation to live left. I'm tired and I'm done. I just wish it was my time to slip away and I would close my eyes and embrace my peace. Life is only for the living, I'm not living anymore. I can't find happiness anywhere. I should leave my husband but I don't have the heart to start again. I wish I could give up. I feel like I just hang about to be a presence for my children until they no longer need me here. I'm so tired.