I found this forum though google...I hesitated a few days before deciding to make an account. The truth is I don't know... There's so much I want to write....too much I want to say...But I don't know if there are enough words to really explain it all. Is it ok for me to just write it all here ? I don't know where else to go or to turn to. I don't even want to die. I just want to disappear. Disappear completely. I can't bear it anymore. I was never meant for this world. I'm trapped...I've been trapped for so long...and I just want to be free. it hurts so much that it doesn't hurt anymore. breathing is just to pass time. I don't know....I just want the noise to stop. I'm so tired. I'm just so tired.