Expecting Relief

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by notmyyear, Apr 25, 2011.

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  1. notmyyear

    notmyyear Member

    I've been thinking about taking my own life for a while now and I always looked forward to the day I decided to do it. I thought that once I had committed nothing else would matter and the remaining (short) life would be care-free.

    But now I'm not sure about that. I feel like there will always be part of me that doesn't want to die and I won't ever feel that relief, which is even more depressing. I just wish there was a way that I could convince myself that I'd actually do it so I could finally feel relief. Maybe with that burden off of my shoulders I'd consider living.
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi Dan, welcome to the forum. I can relate to much of your post. I used to feel that way. meds and therapy changed that... are you seeking any professional help?
     
  3. notmyyear

    notmyyear Member

    I've been taking zoloft for a while now with no real results. I was seeing a counselor a few months ago, but recently moved and haven't started a new one. Thanks for the reply, nice to know someone will listen.
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Can you talk to your doctor about possibly changing your meds?
     
  5. notmyyear

    notmyyear Member

    Well, I recently had a dosage increase and they always say it takes time to work, I'm just becoming impatient I guess.
     
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