Why does pain hurt so much ? why does it even get worse then ever when all is getting pulled together? Pain, dont talk about it feels like its my middle name ...Got pain since -83 and my world are coming down rather quickly nowadays, now i am talking about pain that is so big that every step i take is hard and yeah i am not kidding. Got to get something for that job today. I am afraid that i actually will erase that this week, have no reason no more to live 4 with so much on my body that its hopeless to feel joy and happiness. I just dont get it, why i have so much damages and wounds that i have, it feels like i really deserve it. Why the hell cant i just disapear and vanish from the world.