First I want to say that I am sorry to be asking for such support when I havnt been as active in supporting other right now. I also want to say this may be all over the place as I find it extremely hard to ask for extra support.
This also may be long so sorry in advance. I will try and keep it simple and short so you can kind of understand.....
I had been under the care of hospital in the home for two weeks (as that's as long as the service has clients) several times over that period they were trying to get me to hospital, several meltdown some over simple thing some not. I am overwhelmed by anything and almost everything. So I had an assessment at a step up step down mental health facilitie so you go whe you know your becoming unwell to prevent hospital(what I am trying to do) and they also help early resales from hospital and help ease into the community easier. It's more fredoom and not even the same as hospital at all, but is good and had good support and staff(I have been twice before)
But here's my delemia
I have struggle very hard to keep myself safe and felt myself getting weaker. And it's been like this since hospital in the home so they know this.
The process to neami I will not find out till Wednesday if I get accepted....and then if I can go and if I can it may eve then have a bit more of a wait....
So I may just need random messages of support off people just to try remind me when my battle feels to intense for me.
I know deep deep deep down this neami is what I need but the illness is telling me other wise in a big big big way and I'm finding it hard to hold onto the bit deep down.
I don't know if I am making any sence at all.....
Sorry, thanks for reading if you managed to last this long.
Please take care
This also may be long so sorry in advance. I will try and keep it simple and short so you can kind of understand.....
I had been under the care of hospital in the home for two weeks (as that's as long as the service has clients) several times over that period they were trying to get me to hospital, several meltdown some over simple thing some not. I am overwhelmed by anything and almost everything. So I had an assessment at a step up step down mental health facilitie so you go whe you know your becoming unwell to prevent hospital(what I am trying to do) and they also help early resales from hospital and help ease into the community easier. It's more fredoom and not even the same as hospital at all, but is good and had good support and staff(I have been twice before)
But here's my delemia
I have struggle very hard to keep myself safe and felt myself getting weaker. And it's been like this since hospital in the home so they know this.
The process to neami I will not find out till Wednesday if I get accepted....and then if I can go and if I can it may eve then have a bit more of a wait....
So I may just need random messages of support off people just to try remind me when my battle feels to intense for me.
I know deep deep deep down this neami is what I need but the illness is telling me other wise in a big big big way and I'm finding it hard to hold onto the bit deep down.
I don't know if I am making any sence at all.....
Sorry, thanks for reading if you managed to last this long.
Please take care