Yesterday was just too damn much. I can not take it anymore. family is very inconsiderate as well. After all the emotional drama that went on last night and after one day of crying, I finally got some sleep around 5:30 a.m. I am a light sleeper and I had to be awoken at 8:00 by mother loud ass mother and grandmother. Well, I finally got back to sleep and it would have been nice to sleep until 1 or 2, considering that I fell asleep so late and was disturbed after two hours, but no! They came back home after running errand at 12 with their loud voices. I'm sick of it. I am coming down with a flu. Nobody cares. I also don't care if it is 80 degrees out today. I need to fuc*ing sleep and what is a warm day out with no love? Not to mention, the minute they come in, they have to brag about some girl working in an office who is my same age. That is all they know how to do is point out how everybody is sooo much better than me... Oh and yesterday was just sooo bad because I heard about an ex.... Not to mention, I had finally met another person I liked only to have him turn out to be a jerk who is in love with a 35 year old woman. Yeah, I'm not even better than somebody 14 years my senior. He just used me as a rebound for her. Oh, and my good friend that I go clubbing with hooked back up with her ex, so it looks like she won't be going out that much anymore. Everybody has somebody but me. I've been hooked on ativan the past year and I look like complete shi* too.