it's coming, my complete and total breakdown...and i dont care anymore..i hope when it does come that it destroys my mind so much i cant feel or think.. im tired of doing both.. i just end up f**ked anyway... so it doesnt matter.. who cares.. none of my friends but one have time for me anymore.. and that one has enough on their own plate to be able to devote time to helping me.. truthfully i dont give a damn if i am helped anymore.. what for? for more heart ache? for more pain and loss? for more broken dreams and false hopes? my heart and soul are almost completely broken save for the final straw that will break me in october.. a little over 2 months, the clock is ticking now, sickeningly fast..