To J: I wish I hadn't leant on you so much for emotional support. I fucked up royally. I annoyed you and depressed you. And then I brought up the most terrible event of your life without even meaning to. Other stuff Im so fucking sick of fake friends who are ther for the good times and fuck off when i need them. Freinds who choose to believe a rapist over me. Friends who side with exes and their new girlfriends. Friends who arent there when you need them. Men who think its ok to rape or hit me. Men who think its ok to cheat or belittle me. Ive had enough of it all. It ends tonight.