I'm well and truly cursed! Since I last posted on here I've been in a relationship which like all the others ended prematurely for reasons I can't really pin my finger on and may I say not entirely my fault? I'm just being my sweet and gentlemanly self its mind boggling why women keep changing from being kind into monsters on me. I can only guess they've decided to lash out on me because they suspect I won't be responding any time soon and stand up for myself. Not saying their isn't any nice women around because I went for lunch with one after I unfairly got dumped but I'm sick and tired of dating yet I get heckled with abuse for being single and even my sexuality gets questioned which makes being alone very daunting when I'm quite happy to have no contact with anybody at times. I just can't face another New Years eve stuck indoors keeping my Mum company when the whole evening is basically unspoken off and just like any other yet I don't want to go out for fear of feeling like I've deserted my Mum and making her home alone. To be honest I'm supposed to be out for the first time on this occasional event with mates but it'll be at a place where single people will stick out like a sore thumb. I can't face what next year will bring and have been feeling very suicidal about it to be honest as I've had enough. I can't live in a World like this anymore its cruel. I might not feel depressed lately but I am depressed??