Sorry for what I wrote Wed. night, wasn't close at all to being sane at the time, not sure if I ever will be. Right after that post my body just shut down, could not finish the job and for over a day really lost almost all of my ability to move my legs and arms. Kept trying to stand up, would take one step and fall into something, couldn't use my arms to protect me so now from head to toe and that's no lie, am covered with bruises and cuts, can't believe I didn't crack my head open against a table or go through a window, have never gone through that and don't know the cause of it but am in severe physical pain because of it, may have cracked a rib as I can barely breath and my right hand is so swollen it looks like a catcher's mitt. Now here it is 4 days later and don't know what to say, survived somehow, had my body not shut down when it did I don't think I'd be writing this now, hard to write with only one hand too. I'm such at a loss now, all I can do is sleep, thought I was getting better yesterday but right back to that state I was in a few days ago, can barely walk more than a few steps and need to keep close to a wall when I do and all I do is sleep, can't stay up more than 10 minutes at a time very rarely, wondering if I'll be able to finish this. Whatever I ingested 4 nights ago is still in my system, kept trying to vomit it out to no avail, this is really the worst I have ever felt in my life, mental pain hurts quite a bit but this physical painis something I've never felt before at this level, it's getting hard to take, don't know what to do. Just so worried if I show up at the ER what they would do with me, don't know what do say as I'm so brain dead right now can't think so clearly, sorry for being so long winded, I just can't believe how things have gone from worse to ultra worse.