I am not good at therapy as I find it really hard to talk, but I had been seeing a therapist for about a year. I had told her that I had been abused as a child but not talked about it, she did not want to as she said I was too low. Eventually, I went on medication and my mood got better but she still did not want to talk about it as she said my mood was so much better now I probably didn't need therapy. My husband was diagnosed with cancer and I canceled an appointment as it was too soon after his surgery. My therapist sent me a bill and said to make a closing therapy appointment. I didn't make the appointment and apart from paying the bill I have not had any contact with her. I know I was frustrating because I find it so difficult to talk, especially when I am really depressed. I need to deal with this stuff but I am too worried I will fail at therapy again. I don't know what to do now.