I tried to do it the other night but failed. I wont say how i tried but I will say that now im afraid of living through a second attempt. Im getting more brave as my depression gets worse. I haven't told a soul. You guys are really all I have. My body hurts;my minds hurts more. I want the hate to be over. I want my ex wife to stop hating me. I dont want war anymore. Im not strong, not strong at all. Someone help.