I attempted to die last night, but I failed. Maybe I didnt try hard enough. I am so lonely and sad and isolated. My past has gotten a hold of me in a way that it hasn't in years. Its ruining my life now and I am not functioning at all. I dont eat, I dont sleep and I feel like the world is completely against me. I am determined to just stop fighting this and just to let the pain consume me. I will die extremely soon.