My stupid time to attempt it has failed me once again..( grrrrrrr ) What happened???? welll , first i overslept cause i had drank too dang much beer and took a little to help me sleep.. then i get up and about 5 minutes later get a call from brothers wife , she was stranded in cookeville and broken down.. brother has done went to work , had to be there at 1 pm and so here it is 3:35 pm , so off to cookeville to get her and the kidds, well get back around 5:30 and they ( the kids ) want to go to church , so its off to church i go with the girls and then we are 5 minutes late.. and get this... AFTER CHURCH, THE MINISTERS WIFE TELLS ME SHE HAS SPOKEN WITH MR DALTON AND THAT HE TELLS HER TO TELL ME EVERYTHINGS OKAY , ETC... What the hell do they think i am a play thing or something...? get this, she tells me that he says ( mr dalton ) that if i want to corespond with him to give it to her and she can give it to him>>> How dumb do they think i am??? DO THEY NOT KNOW THAT I CAN NOT TRUST ANYONE , NOT EVEN A MINISTERS WIFE ? They (the daltons ) have my phone number , they know where i live , they have my address.. No need to bother going through a stupid third party... to do so they are not really sincere in my opinion.... how do i even know she even talked to him???? Perhaps she has been here and seen what i wrote and wants to say that to help me feel good?? well its not gonna work... NOT EVER.. I CANT TRUST, CANT THEY SEE THAT??? I DONT KNOW IF HE ACTUALLY SAID IT OR NOT... I DONT KNOW IF SHE EVEN TALKED WITH THEM... HOW AM I TO KNOW , JUST SUPPOSE TO TAKE HER WORD FOR IT??? COME ON IM NOT THAT DUMB... NATURALLY THE CURRENT MINISTER WOULD SAY HEY WE TALKED WITH THE DALTONS AND SO AND SO AND THEY SAY EVERYTHING IS OKAY SO DONT KILL YOURSELF, ETC... WELL LET ME JUST SAY THIS.. I TOLD HER GOODBYE TONIGHT.. CAUSE I MEANT IT.. I AM GOING.. I WILL NOT BE ALIVE COME THIS NEXT SUNDAY... AND I TOLD HER I WOULDNT BE BACK.. SHE JUST SAYS WHY?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN? WELL DUH , WHAT DO YOU THINK I MEAN???? im getting everything in order then im gone.... they had their chance and they blew it..... THEY COULD HAVE CALLED ME, THEY COULD HAVE VISITED , THEY COULD HAVE WRITTEN A LETTER , ETC , BUT THEY BLEW IT.. ITS TOO LATE NOW, JUST TOO FREEKING LATE.... NOTHING AND I MEAN NOTHING IS GONNA STOP ME WHEN I DO IT.. NOTHING..... would have done been gone if it hadnt been for my sister in laws car tearing up and her and the kids getting stranded, or else i would have done been gone... MR DALTON , YOU AND YOUR WIFE CAN TAKE YOUR PRETEND LOVE AND SHOVE IT, YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE BUT YOU BLEW IT.. YOU DIDNT CALL, YOU DIDNT COME OVER , YOU DIDNT SEND A LETTER , YOU BLEW IT.. AND NO IM NOT GOING THROUGH A THIRD PARTY WHEN ITS BETWEEN ME AND YOU AND YOUR WIFE ONLY. I AM NOT GOING TO SEND A CORESPONDENCE THROUGH HER EITHER... YOU WANNA TALK THEN YOUD BETTER GET ON THE BALL AND CALL OR SOMETHING... YOU BOTH KNOW MY TRUST HAS BEEN BROKEN MANY TIMES.. YOU KNOW I CANT TRUST... SO IF YOU ARE SERIOUS THEN YOUD BETTER CALL OR SOMETHING, CAUSE IM NOT GOING THROIUGH A THIRD PARTY. THIS IS BETWEEN ME YOU AND YOUR WIFE ONLY.... YOU KNOW HOW TO REACH ME.... SO TELL ME, PER CHANCE YOU GONNA BE AT THE FAIR BOOTH AT COOKEVILLE ( THE ALGOOD CHURCH OF CHRIST FAIR BOOTH )FRIDAY OR SATURDAY NIGHT DURING THE DERBIES???? WELL LET US TALK THEN.. IF YOU AND YOUR WIFE IS THERE.. THATS YOUR ONLY CHANCE... ONLY LAST CHANCE.. ONLY REASON IM GIVING IT AND DELAYING IT IS BY CHANCE SHE ( JANE) IS TELLING ME THE TRUTH... DO YOU REALLY CARE? DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME? GUESS ILL FIND OUT IN THOSE TWO NIGHTS NOW WONT I... IF NOT IM GONE SUNDAY... CAUSE I WILL BE CAMPING THEN AND RIGHT AFTER THE LAST DERBY ON SATURDAY NIGHT IM GONE... SEE NO KIDS AROUND ME TO DETER ME LIKE TODAY WAS... NO ONE..