Failed in February, want to try again

[momoftwo]

I od'd on a couple of different meds back in the end of february, apparently barely managed to stay alive. I wish I hadn't.
I am at a point now that I don't want to live anymore, but I'm afraid to try and fail the way I did before. I mgiht just have to find a more fool proof way

 

[sudut]

from your name, i can tell that you have 2 kids. how would they feel if you left them. please don't do it.

 

[triedtoomanytimes]

I od'd on a couple of different meds back in the end of february, apparently barely managed to stay alive. I wish I hadn't.
I am at a point now that I don't want to live anymore, but I'm afraid to try and fail the way I did before. I mgiht just have to find a more fool proof way

Sounds like you came pretty close in February....were you taken to hospital? over here any suspected suicide is referred to a crisis team, do you have that where you are?
You haven't said, do you want to die, or get away from what is causing you this distress and despair?

I hope you find the peace you seek, preferably in life sooner than death.

namaste.
t.

 

[momoftwo]

Sounds like you came pretty close in February....were you taken to hospital? over here any suspected suicide is referred to a crisis team, do you have that where you are?
You haven't said, do you want to die, or get away from what is causing you this distress and despair?

I hope you find the peace you seek, preferably in life sooner than death.

namaste.
t.

I did come pretty close in Feb. And I was taken to the hospital. Ended up in the psych ward for less than 72 hours though. I have been at that particular hospital several times and they were of the opinion that I was just there for attention, so they gave me meds and sent me on my way, even though I couldn't get in to see my psychiatrist for 2 more months.

Right now, I don't even know why I fell like this. Guessing the meds are stopping working again. I would welcome death right now because I don't want to keep going through this. I want to be done.

 

[penguin66]

I know how you feel and I feel exactly the same. I haven't had an attempt yet but have the means and method to do it. I recently lost my mother who passed a couple weeks ago. That has made me even more depressed and ready to end it. I think what happens, at least to me, is the feeling that I feel less scared of dying than living with this depression.