I've held it in; I'm trying to be "good" and avoid the paranoia - could they answer an email or post something?!?? I should be used to it - I've lived most of my life in the dark...it is very difficult to change one's "distorted thinking" however when the lack of response is so blatant. Why WOULDN'T I feel worthless if they won't take a moment to respond when I've made the effort, specifically to connect?!? :/. The silent screams continue to build. I just want to vent instead of explode. If you've felt similarly, feel free to share. If you feel compelled to point out my flaws, please don't - today has been difficult enough already.