I'm enrolled at the University of Guelph in Ontario for English. Unfortunately, this semester I took a couple of courses that were beyond my scope of knowledge, mainly, two PSYC courses that were science and math oriented. Of course, you can drop courses up until the 40th class day, which translated to the 10th of March for me, but I missed this date due to my terrible ability to keep track of time/dates (because of my depression, ADHD, whatever the doctors wanted to diagnose me with) I read online you could meet an academic advisor to drop the courses. So I reassured myself a little bit and met with one after some time, but unfortunately, I found out I had to actually APPEAL to drop both of the courses, so all I can do is write a letter based on my psychologica/compassionate grounds, and wait until the appeals board can read it, which translates into a few days before final exams start, so I have a 3 weeks fucking goddamn wait. I can't control myself. I'm failing each course with missed midterms (!) which means I can look forward to achieving under 49%, even if I achieved 100% in every other single assignment. I honestly don't know what to do. I've racked up almost 7000 dollars in student debt, and my parents have had to finance most of my studies here, and I'll I've done is given them a 62% average in semester one, and most likely a failing average this semester, and failed classes, followed by academic probation or whatever the fuck follows a low average. I haven't been actively suicidal for a couple of years now. But now I honestly don't know what to do. I feel like a massive fucking piece of shit who has underachieved his entire life, getting by on subpar marks and constantly letting down my family. Racking up debt and being a lazy piece of freeloading shit. I know attempting or actually committing suicide isn't going to lighten the same I've put my family through, who have actually been relatively stable throughout it all, but I just can't live with this shame. I'm already losing control and if I find out I couldn't get the courses dropped/my request was denied, I honestly think I'm going to kick the fucking can this time.