Suicide ideation is growing.
Feel so alone. So sad.
It's one thing after another. All these small things growing into larger issues. Relative's alcohol issues. Trying to move out.. being financially tied to her. Telling her I need to talk to her so we can handle the financial aspects of the move. Her not responding. Me left to deal with everything... not enough money to handle it all.
Boyfriend not with me. Somewhere else now.
Coworkers who I thought were friends treating me differently now. No idea why. Nothing has changed.
I can feel isolation pulling me down. I feel strangled and I can't escape and I want to not be here.
I feel so alone.
Trying hard to keep a positive outlook. Trying hard and failing. It feels like I'm failing at everything. At being a successful adult who can be social and interact with other adults. At living life. At loving myself. Taking care of my health. I just want to die.
Feel so alone. So sad.
It's one thing after another. All these small things growing into larger issues. Relative's alcohol issues. Trying to move out.. being financially tied to her. Telling her I need to talk to her so we can handle the financial aspects of the move. Her not responding. Me left to deal with everything... not enough money to handle it all.
Boyfriend not with me. Somewhere else now.
Coworkers who I thought were friends treating me differently now. No idea why. Nothing has changed.
I can feel isolation pulling me down. I feel strangled and I can't escape and I want to not be here.
I feel so alone.
Trying hard to keep a positive outlook. Trying hard and failing. It feels like I'm failing at everything. At being a successful adult who can be social and interact with other adults. At living life. At loving myself. Taking care of my health. I just want to die.