I feel so bad about myself. I'm the biggest loser of all time. Seriously. What have I done in life? Nothing, just waste time and space. Useless eater. I've never been good at any thing. I don't really hate the world, I just hate myself. Have no job, no friends, never had a relationship, unhealthy and obese. Only reason I don't kill my self now Is because I don't want to hurt my family. they don't need this stress on them, that one of there young relatives killed his self. If wanting to die makes me selfish so be it, I am selfish I have tried not to be my whole life it doesn't make a damn difference in my own life. So how about I be selfish just this one time, no one gives a fuck, they just like to "point the finger". I guess i am though cause I dont do any thing to help other people. I would if i could. I've been on this site for a long time just typing the same shit about how much of a loser I am. Nothings gotten better. I am doomed. Doomed, as in you can't escape a horrible fate. I get made fun of all the time on the internet. People say things like basement dweller, virgin loser, etcetera. Yep thats me. Doubt they would say that to my face though, I would go berserk on them. Make miserable people feel even worse, must be proud of your self aye? There is a lot I want to do though. I want to be really good at some thing. never going to happen though. To think that my life can become any thing special to me. I know why the world is so bad for me. It's cause I don't deserve a better world. It's not like life is fair or balanced and I had total control over how I would end up. If after life hell is real cyall there.