I have been diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and Social Anxiety, with 7 years of therapy and counting. Since 11, I have suffered from depression and anxiety. From the young precocious child, I have transformed into a socially awkward freak that is incompetent in life. Not to mention the occasional bouts of depression, (mainly) anxiety and isolation that has handicapped me. I am currently in college and have only about 4 friends. So why not make more friends? My social anxiety and awkwardness just explodes right in people's faces, especially when I think I am inferior. My social skills suck as well. They rub off others and people will give me weird facial expressions of discomfort. Times like this reminds me of how much of a failure I am and urges me to commit suicide. I know that I should analyse my underlying issues and resolve them. But the pain is unbearable. Patience is key huh? But how long more? Depending on my efforts? How? I feel stoned most of the day that I cannot think as quickly. I'm either feeling depressed or being anxious. How can I be happy with these depressive and anxious feelings? Any suggestions will be really appreciated. Pardon my writing. I am such a loser that I can't even write fluently.