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[lost_child]

asked today, if when I tried to end my life on the 16th it was a cry for help or an attempt to end my life..normally i've realised that it was a cry for help so to speak....but this time, it was to end my life.

sitting here today, realising things...i've nothing to fight for, any hope i had gone.

not sure how long i will be around but very soon my life will be over.

 

[Sadeyes]

So sorry things are so rough...all I can offer is my caring and a huge cyber hugs...best regards, J

 

[middleofnowhere]

Any suicide attempt is taken seriously, wanting to die or not. My attempts were were not cries for help. They were for real. And I was fortunate to find help, though I have attempted since then.

There's hope, whether you find it in yourself or in someone else.

Jim

 

[Dave_N]

Please lost_child, don't try to end your life again. Any suicide attempt is a serious one. I know that you're hurting, but please don't give up. :hug:

 

[lost_child]

You try not to get give up, but what else is there when nobody gets it..when you try to reach out, your hands are pushed away..no1 gets it. so what's the point. I don't see a future anymore, just a crap existenance.

 

[xXWhateverItTakesXx]

Things do get better. We can only guess our future, no one knows for sure.

Just keep fighting because it will be worth it x :hug:

 

[Robin]

Sometimes the help is there but we do not feel worthy of it so we shun it, better to suffer than take the chance of help from someone else who may need it more and that leaves us with, what? Suicide?

If you are in pain then you deserve any help that is available to you, you may have to fight for it, which is an oxymoron in mental health but it's what you deserve.

 

[lost_child]

there's always someone who deserves it more than me. Suicide seems to be the only option left. I do have a counsellor, but I don't think she wants to see me anymore, not after the session on tuesday where she finished early cause it was clear I didn't feel safe...it was an excuse and the start of her runing away. don't know what else is left other then death..thought i was strong, but realise now just how weak I am.. sorry

 

[Robin]

Or maybe she finished the session early precisely because you didn't feel safe? Sounds like she had your best interests at heart and anyone who has gone through serious trauma is going to need a certain amount of nursing.

If everyone who needed help committed suicide there would be no role for compassionate people to function in. What would the world be like without compassionate people in it? There are enough evil people in the world as it is and from a personal perspective it always seems to be the ones who are hurting who seem to have the most love to give.

 

[xXWhateverItTakesXx]

there's always someone who deserves it more than me. Suicide seems to be the only option left. I do have a counsellor, but I don't think she wants to see me anymore, not after the session on tuesday where she finished early cause it was clear I didn't feel safe...it was an excuse and the start of her runing away. don't know what else is left other then death..thought i was strong, but realise now just how weak I am.. sorry

Sometimes we need to forget other people and just focus on what is right for ourselves. Maybe there is someone in the world who is worse then us, but that's life, and it's a bitch and we can't change that, sadly. But we just have to think that we are not as bad as that person and that should give us a bit of motivation to keep fighting on. And besides, you deserve so much happiness right now.

With the counsellor thing, can you see a new one? I know how hard that is. Maybe you can talk to her if she wants to finish it with you. You do have the right to know. And maybe she just wants to keep you safe and alive <3

There is always some hope in life, no matter how small you think it is, grab onto it with both hands. :hug:

 

[lost_child]

maybe she did, i always look at the negative side. sorry.

the world would be an even worse place then it already is..the world is full of horrible people. I agree though, it does always seem to be the people who have suffered the worse, who hurt the most that seem to understand, to get it, and have love, patienance and tolerance..i just can't seem to find any in my real time world (maybe my counsellor, but she's only 50 mins a week) sorry.

 

[Stranger1]

You need to make another appt. with your counselor!! Tell her everything including how you think she is pushing you away. I understand because my therapist will tell you if you don't like something there is the door! I don't want to loose her because she is great. She has that I don't give a damn attitude...You have to be honest with them because lying isn't helping you. You need to be a little assertive. They like that because it shows you are starting to stand up for yourself.Take Care!!:chopper:!!