I feel like I'm failing my life, i'm almost 19, and I don't do anything. my day consists of couple of hours of uni, work and then food on the couch.
I have no friends, i have nobody to talk to, i feel so horrible about myself.
I feel like I'm dissapointing my parents, I'm the only child, and I'm so weak. I hate everything about myself.
sometimes when I walk, i imagine what i look like from somebody else's point of view, and I can barely move my legs, they feel so heavy, people probably think i'm some weirdo who can't even walk properly, or keep eye contact. i always keep my phone in my hand, just so that I have something in my hand, even though it never rings.
i used to have everything, i used to be pretty and sexy, and have loads of friends, i used to be funny. people called me, guys liked me, asked for my number, i used to go out all the time, people enjoyed my company, now nobody cares, if i show up in school/uni. old friends dont care about me.
i have a boyfriend that I love more than anything, and I know he loves me that much too. but he lives in a different country, so it's not the same. i think if he was here, i wouldnt care that i have noone, because i could always come to him. but this way, i am the only person i have..and even I hate myself, how can other people like me
I have no friends, i have nobody to talk to, i feel so horrible about myself.
I feel like I'm dissapointing my parents, I'm the only child, and I'm so weak. I hate everything about myself.
sometimes when I walk, i imagine what i look like from somebody else's point of view, and I can barely move my legs, they feel so heavy, people probably think i'm some weirdo who can't even walk properly, or keep eye contact. i always keep my phone in my hand, just so that I have something in my hand, even though it never rings.
i used to have everything, i used to be pretty and sexy, and have loads of friends, i used to be funny. people called me, guys liked me, asked for my number, i used to go out all the time, people enjoyed my company, now nobody cares, if i show up in school/uni. old friends dont care about me.
i have a boyfriend that I love more than anything, and I know he loves me that much too. but he lives in a different country, so it's not the same. i think if he was here, i wouldnt care that i have noone, because i could always come to him. but this way, i am the only person i have..and even I hate myself, how can other people like me