I am sure that 'fake it til you make it' has merit if the thing you are faking is just... buried. Under insecurity or fear or a lack of confidence or whatever. But faking it because you don't have it, faking it when you can't do it, faking it so you don't... *METHOD* Well that's just pathetic. I just spent actual hours trying to figure out something that literally millions of people can do. That actual children can do. And I can't figure it out. And the reason I can't figure it out is because I am fucking stupid. I pretend I am smart, but the basic fact is I can't do ANYTHING unless someone shows me first. I have an excellent memory - if someone shows me something I can do it. But remembering something doesn't make you smart. I can't work out ANYTHING for myself. Who can really blame all the people who gave up on me. I am not worth investing time or energy in. Let alone anything else. I am a fake. I fake a desire to live. I fake a belief in the future. I fake being a nice person. I fake being smart. I fake EVERYTHING. In actual fact - if you strip back all the false shit - is barely even a human. No wonder everybody who actually knows me gave up on me.