Faking it.

[sinking_ship]

Hi Sinking, Sorry you're feeling so bummed. When was a time you didn't feel lazy or unmotivated? How can you get back to that? I think we all feel that way from time to time, even those who would be considered "successful." We just need to remember every day when we wake up that today's a new day. Just take it day by day.

I think I’ve always been lazy, I just had goals that were easier for me. I am successful because I’m intelligent and lucky.

Thanks though. My therapist also tries to tell me to take things one day at a time. I’m not so good at that

 

[Were all together]

Hi sinking_ship!!!
How are you this evening?

 

[sinking_ship]

Hi sinking_ship!!!
How are you this evening?

Hey. Not quite evening yet - I’m waiting for some code to finish so I can leave work to get my car from the shop.

I’m doing okay, thanks. For now at least. We’ll see how I fare once I’m home alone.

I still don’t really know what to believe. Because I’m depressed I think I’m not depressed? It feels like it makes more sense to blame myself rather than use depression as an “excuse”. Which, yes therapist thank you, I WOULD only call it an “excuse” in quotes for me and not for the other 6,999,999 people on the planet.

 

[Were all together]

Hey. Not quite evening yet - I’m waiting for some code to finish so I can leave work to get my car from the shop.

I’m doing okay, thanks. For now at least. We’ll see how I fare once I’m home alone.

I still don’t really know what to believe. Because I’m depressed I think I’m not depressed? It feels like it makes more sense to blame myself rather than use depression as an “excuse”. Which, yes therapist thank you, I WOULD only call it an “excuse” in quotes for me and not for the other 6,999,999 people on the planet.

Maybe, pick up a good book to read?

 

[sinking_ship]

Ok, my therapist pointed out that either way, if it’s depression or some other reason, the things I need to do to help myself are the same. So I guess I’m supposed to stop concentrating on the why. That doesn’t come naturally to me, but I’ll try to remind myself.

We had a long session last night and I feel like a lot was said but I don’t know that I processed it all. I’m still just confused about what’s going on in my own head and what’s really me versus what I pretend to be.

 

[Were all together]

Ok, my therapist pointed out that either way, if it’s depression or some other reason, the things I need to do to help myself are the same. So I guess I’m supposed to stop concentrating on the why. That doesn’t come naturally to me, but I’ll try to remind myself.

We had a long session last night and I feel like a lot was said but I don’t know that I processed it all. I’m still just confused about what’s going on in my own head and what’s really me versus what I pretend to be.

Glad you had a session. At least you're talking. Don't expect drastic results soon. It will take time. And, that's always the hardest part. But, the good thing is, you're getting help. And, we need you!!

 

[sinking_ship]

Glad you had a session. At least you're talking. Don't expect drastic results soon. It will take time. And, that's always the hardest part. But, the good thing is, you're getting help. And, we need you!!

Thanks. You’re awfully chipper haha. And yeah, my therapist is pretty great even if he doesn’t always tell me what I want to hear (ugh, probably BECAUSE he doesn’t). I’ve been seeing him for almost a year though. I think some things I’ve improved and others I’ve gone downhill, so I lose patience. I wish it was a linear process.

 

[Were all together]

It's like riding a wave in the ocean.

 

[chinaandback]

It's like riding a wave in the ocean.

So true.