Being at this forum for about a week, ive got to read afew peoples stories and it makes me notice how much people have been through. Then i look at myself and notice i havnt been through half as much as alot of people but its still efecting me the same. Aka i have very little reason to be depressed, selfharming etc yet i still feel shit every day. I thought about it thoroughly last night and i came out of it happy because finaly i realised i dont have to be like this, i felt free, but as soon as i woke the next morning i felt the same as always. I reminded myself of what i´d thought the previous night but it did nothing. Does this mean im a fake? Im not a weak person generally, i have fairly strong willpower etc but i feel so.. fake and poser like when i read about people with real problems. I thought maybe im being too modest and my issues are quite big but then i thought that is most likely a defence mecanism, protecting the way ive been and thought for years. Sometimes i wish for an exuse to be the way i am. I´ve thought about becoming a whore for cash when our family went through some horrible finance troubles (well there isnt a time when we arnt havign problem with that really) but i VERY much doubt a chunky hairy boy will be much of a turn on for perverts. I feel i need to apologise for being such a ****. Im sorry to you all with real issues for everyone like me. I feel ashamed.