I am a 21 year old male in college in Minnesota USA. I am falling apart by hte day. People look at me different and it hurts. Can people tell if someone is depressed by not saying anything? I have been going to a doctor for 2 weeks and just started anti-depressants. I moved out of my parents house in August and transfered to a new college to be an auto mechanic. Living alone was a bad choice, My depression has worsened and school in getting to be unbearable for me. Nobody likes me, including my instructor. I don't know what to do with myself. I am moving home and going to commute to college for the rest of the semester. I dated a girl that was 3 years younger than me. She treated me bad and her mom always blamed me for everything that went wrong in their disfunctional family. We fell out of love. What nobody knows is that me and this girl were going to elope and start a life together after 6 months of dating. it turned out that nothing i did was good enough for her. She came from a very wealthy family. It still hurts to think of it. I have tried to talk to her but she chews me out for calling her. I just hurt physically and my heart aches for friends. This is a lonely life we live in. i thought I was the only one that felt this way. i just want to give up and throw in the towel. some how I manage to keep the faith, even though every day is harder to get through. Does anyone feel this way or have similar experiences?