i am in a really bad spot. and i have been for a while now. its not getting any better. i dont see any hope. just when i think i cant go any lower it drops to a new lower level. i started cutting after years and now cant stop. cutting doesnt change the feelings but have to keep cutting. i am hopeless, useless and a looser. i have a therapist i saw a few times but its all new and cant tell her for fear of hospital. i have noone to talk to. no family or friends. my kids are too young and my husband has no idea. DEPRESSION HAS NEVER BEEN THIS BAD. i have my back door open and still working on details. i dont know what to do.