Okay, so I'm new here and i don't often have internet access these days which sucks but I still think this place will be good. Somewhere to talk. About these feelings that are swirling round in my head, and down my throat, suffocating me. I no longer know what to do with them anymore. This has been a very tough month and I'm truly trying my hardest to get through it in one piece without having a complete breakdown. That would not be good right now. I have to keep things together right now or else everything will take over. And as for the people I should be able to depend on, well they don't understand. Not really. I mean don't get me wrong, they try, they really do but it all feels a bit forced. Like I'm too much to deal with. Too complicated and damaged. Yet, as I'm typing this, I don't feel sorry for myself. I only have myself to blame for being at this point in my life and being the way i am. I'm done.