I've been so depressed lately. In fact this issue has pushed me back into a downward spiral. I was really doing good for awhile staying stable. I have a good friend who lives in another country and we've been exchanging emails and letters often for the past year or so. We met each other through a comic convention in Toronto. I went with a group of friends and we chipped in on the trip so this was one of the only times I was able to get out and travel somewhere and afford it. Anyway, I met this guy at the convention when we were waiting in line for a book signing. We struck up a pretty good conversation. We exchanged emails for networking. I've fallen for him since we've kept in contact. When I first met him, I found out later that he was single through casual conversation. This didn't mean much to me at first. The thing is he's very supportive as a friend and that's made me feel close to him over time. He's not really my usual type but his personality is exactly what I've always wanted in a partner. I don't know if he feels the same way and I am too chicken shit to bring this up. Plus he now has a girlfriend and that is triggering tons of jealous pangs. I can't stand that I waited too long to say anything or that she gets to have him. This is totally eating me up inside as I want to confess my feelings for him. I don't know if my feelings come from really loving him or from the fact that he's been so nice to me and supportive through emails. He lives in Toronto and I am in the states. I've got no money to visit Canada again, especially on my own, but I've been thinking about looking for a way to move there in the near future. It fits all of what I want anyway, especially when it comes to job opportunities. I also need to get out of the states. Things are going to shit here! Should I mention my feelings to him or just leave it alone and try to force myself to let go of contact with him completely? I feel like I need to do something because it's hard not to think about him and my feelings. My feelings are just growing stronger every time we connect! Anyone experience anything similar? How did you deal with these feelings? Please help!