Falling to pieces

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Zueri, Feb 20, 2007.

  1. Zueri

    Zueri Well-Known Member

    I'm drowning in my own sorrow, and I can't breath anymore. Everything I touch goes to pieces...
    What the hell did I do to deserve this?! Life isn't fair...Pain does not discriminate...that I realize...but this is TOO FUCKING MUCH!
    I don't know how long I can still hold out like this. Death is very appealing at the moment...

    I'm tired of trying to please people. Their evident rejection of my efforts to do so hurts...I don't know why...it shouldn't!
    I'm tired of having to deal with people who just PRETEND to care...
    If they left me alone till now, why have they keep doing so!
    I WANT MY OWN LIFE BACK! I WANT TO BE LEFT TO FALL TO PIECES ON MY OWN IF THAT'S WHAT FATE INTENDED! I don't need anybody's fake sympathy...I don't need their fake concern....And when I try to tell them they are wasting their time with me...THEY DON'T FUCKING LISTEN!
    What the hell is happening to me?

    "When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
    I look exactly like what you always wanted to see.
    When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am
    Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
    I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just
    trying to bend the truth...
    I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m
    Lying my way from you.
    No, no turning back now.
    I wanna be pushed aside so let me go.
    No no turning back now
    Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone
    No turning back now
    Anywhere on my own cuz I can see
    No no turning back now
    The very worst part of you is me"
    ~Linkin Park

    PLEASE NOTE: This is just another one of my insane rants...