So, 8 months after an attempt and back to square one. Reading other posts makes me feel guilty, I have no physical or mental health problems although my wife does so I can identify with many people on here, life should be all roses. Unfortunately it's not, drowning in debt, lies, guilt, shame - you name it!! I will go in a few days, just want one last weekend with my family. Failed last time because I was found in time, won't make same mistake again. The only good thing is knowing the peace of that final moment, only peace I have had in years, selfishly looking forward to it, worthless failure, what a waste. I hope to spend a few days encouraging people to find a better way out, add hypocrite to my list of failings!