I called my cousin a hypocrite and a meani, and I get hassled for it! REALLY? I try to keep things g-rated, and get hassled for it. Then I get hassled for hiding during parties because I don't want people to see me crying. What the HELL? My family doesn't even want me around anymore. They say I haven't tried enough to change. I take swimming lessons. Try classes. Go to therapy, and they say I'm not trying hard enough? I don't know what to do. I just want someone I can talk to anything about, but is seems I can only trust a professional counselor. I'm just so tired of trying. I haven't done anything the entire week. I just lay in bed all day. I've even tried cutting. I've thought about spending thanksgiving with a game of SIMs. At least then I can pretend I have a family that cares.