Like people here thoughts of suicide constantly plague my mind, day and night. Now there are many reasons as to why we haven't actually commited suicide from being cowardly (or brave however you wish to see it), some small glimmer of hope to get better, maybe you were caught on your last attempt and haven't attempted since or maybe the guilt of hurting your family from your suicide is too much guilt to carry through with the act, like what happens with me. But not wanting to hurt my family, is that truly a justified reason. I mean if they aren't caused pain by me commiting suicide then it's me that's the one in pain from not ending my life. From that thinking I'd be called selfish which is true I guess but then wouldn't it be safe to say that my family is selfish in not wanting me to be happy? Ok for one group to be selfish but not another? There really is no point to this thread I guess, I thought there was when I decided to write it but there isn't. Just more rambling I had to write down.