I assumed this is where to put this? I dunno. And I'll apologize now for spelling and that, typing on my phone. Okay, so my night tonight was a family bbq. Even both parents, which is weird after the divorce. What I dont understand, why was I the only one who felt shit all night? Like, they were all having beers, eating, laughing, enjoying the night. Me? I was sitting there, wishing I was anywhere but there. I just didnt want to be around my family, which i dont understand.. I love my family. I wanted to just curl up and cry the night away... But i faked a smile, acted all happy infront of them, now im laying with my head on a soaked pillow... And i just dont get it..