I've just found out that the woman I love doesn't love me. Even worse, I've found out that she has never loved me - so there is no chance that things will ever work out.
This is a place I've been in so many times in my life. I know, intellectually, that I am not a worthless piece of shit, but that's how it always works out. Obviously, I don't know what I do wrong, or why I'm not good enough for anyone, but I wish I did. Then I could do something about it. I guess that proves that there's nothing I can do about it - so I'm looking for an exit. I can't keep doing this to people, and I can't endure this pain any longer.
This is a place I've been in so many times in my life. I know, intellectually, that I am not a worthless piece of shit, but that's how it always works out. Obviously, I don't know what I do wrong, or why I'm not good enough for anyone, but I wish I did. Then I could do something about it. I guess that proves that there's nothing I can do about it - so I'm looking for an exit. I can't keep doing this to people, and I can't endure this pain any longer.