I thought i had a handle on the depression, ive come off the tablets and ive been coping.. still depressed but managing to carry on with life etc rather than curl up in a ball crying! Today i took some photos of me and my 2year old cousin and i realised i am fat and ugly! well, i already knew this but it kind of hit home more today for some reason. So ive decided to go on a diet starting tomorrow. Ive said this millions of times and never stick to it for long.. but im determined to try! im never going to be stick thin and mega sexy.. but id like to be thinner.. more of a normal size.. id be happier! it seems like such a far away goal though.. like its going to take forever!