:hug:
You may well not believe right now that anybody understands you or your situation. That's fair enough, but what you're going through is familiar.
We're all here for you. You are not alone.
The thing about advice is that you can take it or leave it, people will give it to you because they want to help you. Even if you do choose to leave it, listen to it and remember it. You never know when you might want it.
I can only express my concern over your target weight. It is pretty tiny. Other than that, I won't push the issue.
Take care of yourself.
:hug: